JT

Work was really great today! The grandmother was there and that was actually really nice. I was worried that she might be bossy or judgemental but she was great the whole day. We talked about politics and even Michael Jackson. It couldn't of gone better.
Really the only way to describe JT is fragile. Hes just so tiny and delicate. On the other hand he also had a ton of energy at times. It was interesting to see him go from crazy hyper to extremely tired. He never really ate too much but that's really to be expected with a preemie. I was surprised by not how many TVs were in the home but how big they were. it was ridiculous! There was a 36 inch TV in the PLAY room. Really? Does the kid need Elmo to be that big? Also, in his room there is a huge TV angled towards his crib. I can kind of understand having a TV in his room so that when you're maybe rocking him to bed you could watch something but even then, that's a stretch. The fact that it faces his crib is just weird. Hes only 2!
After I got out of work I went home and then Connie came home shortly after. We just went to a BBQ place for the first time and it was pretty good. I'm sure we'll be going there again. It was really nice getting to sit around and talk with her, I have barely seen her in months. Hers and Justin's 3 month anniversary is this Saturday. Its so funny how it feels like they've been together for longer than that. When I think about how long Tim and I have been together (only a year, lol) sometimes it feels like forever and other times it feels like no time.
I still keep coughing! It sucks so much cause no matter how much I cough my throat just doesn't feel any better. I really hope I'm not getting sick. Also, I cant stop thinking about my foot! I have about 15 (and I swear I'm not even exaggerating) different ant bites on my left foot and they burn and itch. It sucks. :(
Jamie should be here any second. Were not gonna go out anymore tonight. Yes! But only because Avis is dog sitting for Richie's mom. That dog is so old its blind and Avis is afraid that if she leaves her in the apartment then it'll get lost or hurt. Jamie and I are gonna drive over there and I guess eat dinner and just bitch and gossip. The gossiping will be alright but Ive already gotten all of mine out by talking with Connie, lol. It's better that way anyway because Connie and I agree on so much and shes not judgemental. I can complain about something stupid between me and Tim and not have to worry that Connie will say we should just break up. Jamie, though she tries to hide it, hates that I'm still with Tim and its so obvious. Its ridiculous and annoying and it belittles my feelings, not to mention how disrespectful she is being towards Tim whenever she says anything. Ugh. I need to not think this way or I'll be mad when she gets here.
Last night I got so mad at Tim. The other day we got in a big fight over him playing Wow and its the same ol fight. Its so stupid. He thinks I hate that he plays but its not the video game, its the way he does it. Like, he'll say he'll be off in a few minutes and then he wont be. I'm ok if he wants to play for a few hours but I hate being told he'll be done "shortly" or "in a few" and then hes not. Last night he played for 4 1/2 hours and that's why I was pissed, not even that he played. It's just so frustrating. After he was done he knew I was pissed but we didn't really address it. Instead he started acting super sweet and complimenting me and stuff. When we got in bed I was so ready to just go to sleep and not really talk to him or anything but we ended up fooling around. I was really surprised by how good it was, lol. Maybe we should have angry sex more often?